WTF?

I just found out yesterday that GCC has cancelled my Spanish 102 class.   WTF??  How can that be?  There are several day classes.  If they had cancelled one of the day classes, maybe those students would have joined our night class.  It was the only night class.  I’m so upset!  This is not a good time to take a break in my language.  I’ll forget so much!  I was just awarded this awesome study abroad scholarship, and then they cancel my class….I just don’t get it.  I can’t take it as a day class.  My job will never authorize it.  They aren’t even reimbursing me this year, as I don’t really “need it” for my degree.  So if they don’t feel I need it, they are never going to authorize a day class.  I’m so sad about it.   I don’t know what to do!  I did an hour lesson online through NuLengua.  It’s done at Tecun Uman in Antigua.  I actually got my old professor!  It was cool to talk with him again!  I’ll have to investigate that, see if it’s accredited…if it’s worth working with him online in that way.  Maybe I’ll do it just to keep my skills, but I would want to get credit for it, so I can move on to other classes hopefully next semester.   Have I said I’m pissed about this??  Grrrrrrr

Work is…work.  I’m working as much OT as they’ll give me.  The extra money is excellent right now!  I really do love my job, although I have put my resume out there.  I’m not sure I’m where I’ll always be anymore.  I have doubts now, about my career…my future…my goals.  I want to make a difference.  I want to be excited again, about my lifework.  Is that so much to ask?  I’m thinking not so much.  Tonight when I was working overtime, one of my residents rolls up to me, in her wheel chair, and smiles at me.  I smiled back, and she laughed, and said, “Hi Sweetheart.”  I just looked at her for a minute.  I’ve worked with this woman for almost 7 years now.  She see’s me everyday.  To her, I DO make a difference.  That made me remember how much I can love my work.  I really love my residents. 

I get out at almost midnight, and my husband was outside, waiting for me.  He was picking me up.  We drove home together, with the windows down a bit…it was chilly out.  I could feel fall in the air, and it made me feel down.  I looked over at my husband.  In the darkness, lit only dimly by the dashboard lights, I saw him glance over at me.  He smiled, then faced the road again.  I smiled then, so happy that he loves me!  We chatted on the way home, about the kids, about money, about the rain that fell most of the evening.  We talked about nothing too serious, just chatted.   I love our time together.  Even if it’s only a few minutes stolen here and there.  We’re pretty good at making “us” time. 

We get home and 3 of the 4 kids here now, were still up.   I got some lovin’ from the girls, and they all went to bed within a 1/2 hour of my getting home.  I helped my husband clean up the kitchen, and he broiled me a piece of left over chicken from their dinner.  It was delicious!!  That, and a glass of diet pepsi, and I was a happy woman.   Now the kids are all sleeping, Jim is watching wrestling on TV and I’m blogging…I have tomorrow off, thank God!  We’re having a little birthday party for Becca’s boyfriend Dale.  He’s 20 tomorrow.  He has no idea we’re having cake.  His mom is coming over.  It should be a nice time.  I’m hoping that Jim and I can take time for a swim tomorrow night.  That is my ultimate relaxation.  I submerge in the water and swear I can SEE the stress leave my body.  It’s amazing.  I love it!  And Jim, bless him, comes with me, even though he could really care less.  lol  What did I do to deserve such an awesome mate?

Well I’m getting sleepy…and i’m chilly….and my belly is full.  All good ingredients for sleep!  Til next time   xoxo