Changes

My home is full again!  Kids everywhere.  The kids are once again filling my house with laughter, tears, dirty laundry…My son and his girlfriend drove up from Florida and stayed for several days.  That was great!  My daughter Kat came back home from Maine, done with her program there.  My other daughter  Becca and her boyfriend just moved in.  We went from empty to full in 60 seconds!    Joselyn comes home tomorrow.  She’s been in AZ for the past 6 weeks.  Tomorrow, all 3 girls will be home again!  It’s great, and crazy all wrapped up!  It’s going to be an adjustment for them all to be together again, sharing space.  And for Jim and I too!  We had gotten quite accustomed to being alone.  We like this better!  I love when the kids are around

Last weekend we had an awesome crazy party!  Jim’s family and my family, all partying together.  It was so fun!  We had a DJ, tons of food, and good times!  Heidi got trashed, Dan was responsible, and the kids were dirty dancing all over eachother in my yard.  Good times….good times.  People are laughing, dancing, singing, and I’m watching.  Watching all my friends and family.  Watching them intermingle.  Watching them enjoy eachother.  I felt old, watching my children.  They are adults!  When did that happen??  My husband was having such a great time with his family.  His niece, and his nephews were here.  Several people popped tents and stayed here.  I felt good, and safe, about that. Free, to let people have fun, free to have a few myself!  And knowing that people weren’t drinking and driving.  It allowed me to relax.  It was a great time.  One of my husbands nephews, Mike, had his son here with him, who’s 15.  He hadn’t seen his son since he was 3 yrs old.  His son, David,  lives in MO and I guess at this point in his life, he wanted to know his dad.  However it happened, it was really really cool.  The transformation in Mike was amazing!  He went from a virtual hobbit to a relaxed, fun, interactive guy!  He became a parent.  He became alive!  It was awesome.  I was really happy to meet David.   He looks just like Mike!  

After we pick up Joselyn at the airport tomorrow, we’re going to Mikes place so Joselyn can meet David.  They have been talking on the computer for quite some time.   They are excited to finally meet eachother!  Then David goes home the day after tomorrow.  Til next time!  And there will be a next time….MANY next times!  We’re going to stop and see Jim’s moms house tomorrow too.  It’s almost finished.   Jim and his brothers have pretty much re-done the place.  Ripped out bathrooms, cupboards, floors and re-did it all.  They filled the pool.  That made me cry. I have so many happy, happy memories around that pool, and I didn’t live there my whole life!  It made me so sad to fill it, like, it really felt…”gone.”  She felt really “gone.”  Jim took a tile from the pool, and has been engraving it.  It will say “Emil and Millies Family Pool” with the date it went in and the date it got filled.  It’s actually really cool!  I love it.  It’s so funny how people come, and go….how life comes, and goes.  How kids are born, and then they grow, and before you know it, your old.  Ok so we’re only early 40′s…..but damn it feels so old sometimes.  I think of Jims moms house.  He is the youngest of 7 kids.  His whole life was spent in that house.  He has a lifetime of memories there. Now the house is renovated.  Doesn’t even look the same.  Soon it will sell and have a new family making their own memories in it.  It’s just wierd to think of….

Tomorrow will probably be my last time in that house.  I’ll say my goodbyes tomorrow.  And leave it behind.  My husband and I will drive away, down Keans Rd., and towards another phase of our lives.    Goodbye to all the times we’ve had there.   Goodbye mom.   Goodbye….